Beauty Defined By A Color and Society: A Survivor’s Story by Britni Thomas

You’ve heard about it and occasionally have seen it.  The difference a shade or a skin color can make a woman beautiful and model-like to not considered beautiful, for a lack of better words. The thing that separates these women from appearing on the front of magazines is either being dark skinned and short-haired or dark-skinned with an afro. The way society now views beauty has distorted many views of girls of themselves. The magazines are constantly showing girls how they should wear their hair or what make up to wear. Now, it seems like it is also showing girls who are pretty and that being black with and afro is an ugly thing. The profiling of beauty has now turned into the war of color and race. The war is not only in the fashion world but also in the minds of women everywhere.

I was a victim to the twisted thinking society has instilled in women today. I am personally have faced such harsh judgement when I went from living in a prodominantly white neighborhood to living in a neighborhood where I was no longer the only black girl in my class. Living in Redondo Beach, I was never ashamed to be me. I wore my hair in braids sometimes but mostly straight and I was pretty light because I spent most of my time indoors, studying.  I never noticed me being different from everyone else. As far as I was concerned, I was not really black. I spoke and acted as if I was just like the other white kids in my class. After i graduated from elementary school and got into middle school, my family moved to Lancaster, which was a big culture shock for me. I was no longer the only black girl in my class and I had even made an enemy because of the way I looked, acted, and spoke. I was a girl who was very quiet and very calm and never fought with anyone. I actually ran away from fights.

Within my first 3 weeks of school, I was hated by a girl in my class and her and her friends attacked me after school one day. They pulled my hair, called me white-washed and told me I was not beautiful, that I did not deserve to be considered a black girl. It is a issue that was never resolved but I later found out she hated me so much because of the way I was and the way I looked. She hated that I was light skinned with long straight hair and a skinny body and that I got good grades and spoke proper instead of cursing every other word. She hated me because I was different.  She hated me because I did not fit into the stereotype. She hated me because society lead her to believe that the way I looked was beautiful and that the way she looked was utterly ugly. I, as well, have become a victim to the lies society is constantly feeding us. That long hair down my back is gorgeous and that fake looks better than your natural hair. That my skin must be lighter to be considered a beautiful girl instead if the skin I have that tends to change with the seasons and sun exposure. I wanted so badly to be a model. I had the walk but not the body type or the look. To be that model, I felt like I must be underweight and look anorexic. I nearly destroyed myself to fit into these views. Suffered from anorexia, added fake hair to my hair to have the long beautiful hair but in the form of braids, tried to wear lighter make up, and hide from the sun so that my skin may lighten back up. I was a victim to society racial project.

In the picture below, you can see just how twisted minds can be when it comes to beauty. They lightened Beyonce’s skin in this advertisement because she was darker than what they wanted. Like I said before, beauty is being defined by a shade, by a color, by a race, and it is tearing women, young and old apart. I went through it but even though I was a victim, I now consider myself a survivor.


Bio: Andrew Esmundo

Hi my name is Andrew Esmundo and I am a criminology student at CSUN. I work at In-n-out in porter ranch. In my free time I enjoy skating, reading, airsoft, football, and traveling. My favorite place I have traveled to so far would have to be hiking twelve miles into the Grand Canyon through an Indian village and camping next to a waterfall. When it comes to music, I have a wide range of interests. My favorites vary from Aesop Rock, Wu-Tang, and Typical Cats(hip-hop) to As Blood Runs Black, Parkway Drive, and The Warriors(Metal). As far as my political views, I am a solid liberal and also an atheist. To me, organized religion will be the major components of the downfall of man. I am a huge fan of Bill Maher and George Carlin. I love to argue and debate over heated topics especially when I know I can get a strong reaction from the other person. After college, I will be joining the Marine Corps and hopefully get a job in law enforcement in New York after I serve.  From this class I hope to gain a better understanding of race and racism.

Bio: Britni Thomas

Hey Everyone!

My name is Britni. I am an English-Creative Writing major and I love writing short stories, books and poetry. I love  to sing, dance, act, write, model….basically, I’m a huge arts person. I am a multi-cultural woman mixed with about 4 different backgrounds. I am a disciple of Christ, basically I’m a Christian. I have endured many hard times in my life which has shaped me into the strong woman I am today. I LOVE Disney! Anything Disney, really. I love all types of music. I am the type of person who will being listening to popular hits and then to broadway music the next second. Friends and family are very important in my life and without my friends, I would probably be in a crazy house. Being African-American, I have faced certain trials that have shocked me and hurt me but at the same time have helped me grow. I went from being the only black girl in my class to being the only one who doesn’t swear every other word and who likes to have her hair long and straight. I have been bullied by blacks because of how I look and how I act and how I talk. It is a shame that I get bullied for being different, for even looking different. It hurts that there is still so much racism in the US but every change comes with time. I try to keep things positive and like to stay joyful.  I am a very chill, laid-back, fun, happy, bubbly girl who likes to look on the bright side of things.